Breakdowns...

From what I've heard, you are supposed to have mental breakdowns before the end of finals, not after they are done. However, I had one yesterday. I can't really describe it and I have little insight into its origin. Since then I've tried to take more control of my life, get more sleep, stick up for myself in front of others, and be completely honest with myself.

It's only been 24 hours since then, but I feel better already. This whole sleep deprived state sucks ass. I've caught up on my sleep (as far as I can tell) and I'm going to try my hardest to keep up with my sleep over the next week. I've also done some cleaning. My couches are finally sit-able and I treated the carpet for stains. I'm going to return library books tonight (I have over 20 books out at various libraries). I even managed to clean out my car and get an oil change. I've turned down the social invites that I didn't think I could fit into my schedule.

It's amazing how easily I seem to be able to lose control of my life. It used to be that a completely full schedule was conducive to being productive and kept me sane. Maybe it is that I'm getting older, but now it seems to have the opposite effect.

I drove to see Taz last night and he loved his gift. He was impressed that I had been so attentive in listening to his requests. Some of the things he had only mentioned once and some things he hadn't talked about in months. I love giving good gifts.

Tonight I have to go to work. I'll bring crocheting and lots of good books and I've gotten sleep, so hopefully it won't be painful.