verge of tears

Work and I are not getting along today. I was supposed to leave an hour and a half early to go to a presentation at my school - a very cool presentation. But I was with a client and felt bad about leaving, so I skipped the cool presentation. Then I found out that I have to go to a 40 hour training for that same job spread over 2 weekends, one of which happens to be my birthday weekend. Now this is bad for a few reasons. First, I have worked at this job for 5 months and they are just now sending me to training. That is completely ridiculous. I'm so pissed. They are not going to tell me a damned thing that I have not learned in the last 5 months. Come on folks. Second, I wanted to go to a festival on my birthday. It only lasts one weekend and it was going to be my birthday present to myself. Now I can't go because I have to fucking work. I'm so pissed. I think I might skip out on some of the training because I'm definitely going to the stupid festival. I've already missed out on enough stuff because of this job. I'm not going to ruin my birthday and I'm not going to miss this festival, especially since this might be the last opportunity I get to go because I might live across the country this time next year. Damn me for always feeling obligated to do shit. I need to grow a freakin' spine.